Spring Break!

Sorry I have not updated in a while! Things have been very busy for me. This past week has been spring break and I have been making the most of it!

First, my mom and I took our annual spring break trip to Destin, Fl. We have so much fun together and it is the only time that she and I can just have time to do whatever we want and is totally uninterrupted. We get to do a lot of shopping, eating lots of good food, and of course soaking up the sun! I love that time I get with her so much and we always have a great time. 

This year was especially important because with the IVF process about to begin, I know I will not get another opportunity to relax like that for a long time. So, while I am on the subject, I am going to vent for a moment. The waiting is KILLING me!!! I have never wanted my period to start so bad in all my life! Everyday I keep hoping that today is the day, but nothing. Waiting sucks! Mother Nature BRING IT ON ALREADY!!!!!   

Now to the next thorn in my side, the day I came home from my vacation, Michael and his EX has gotten into a huge fight really of stupid stuff, but whatever. This rarely happens anymore, but when it does, they are usually knock down drag out arguments. She drives me crazy! I have always tried to be there for her, be her friend. Now I know all of that means nothing to her. I guess it never has. I am so hurt by her right now I can't even stand it! She actually said that my family, including myself, was not Gabe's "real family". Anyone who knows me, knows that is the craziest comment ever! I love that child with all my heart, as if he were my own. My family feels the same way. It breaks my heart beyond words that she would not be so thankful that Michael found someone that cares so much. I suppose its jealousy of her own loneliness or fear that if and when another baby comes my feelings for Gabe would change. But that could not be farther from the truth. In my eyes he will always be my first child. From now till forever. 

I am a good person, I try hard to take care of others before myself. I have always tried to be a good person to my husband's ex-wife because I want Gabe to have a happy family. All of his family included. I am not sure why some people act the way they do, but words really do hurt!

Well, now that I have gotten that out, I am going to go back to cleaning house and enjoying my last day of spring break! This whole bogging thing is very therapeutic.  

Happy Spring Everyone!