It always happens to me!!!

This weekend has not been the easy going weekend I was hoping for. I went to pick up my dress yesterday from the alterations place and it was altered wrong! Ok this sucks, but this was the dress for my 10 year class reunion and now I got nothing. I have searched all weekend but that was my dress and I can't find another one or one that I love as much as that one. It just totally sucks! Needless to say things like this always happens to me. 

TGIF

It has been such a crazy week for me! Work has been really busy and I have had so much going on every night this week that I feel like I have had no time to sit down and just rest, other than to sleep. I am so glad the weekend is finally here! 

My plans for the weekend are pretty boring, but I am SO ok with that. I hope to get my house clean and a little more organized.

I know it sounds kinda funny but I almost feel like I am already nesting and I am not even pregnant yet. I really want to work on getting the extra bed room cleaned out that will hopefully be the baby's room. I know it may seem like I am getting ahead of the game... but I am. It worries me a little that I have my hopes up so high that this whole IVF thing is going to work, but I just can't help it. This is as close as I have gotten to having hope that I may be pregnant soon. I may be "putting the cart before the horse" but anyone who knows me knows how much I have waited my whole life for this and I am so excited I just can't stand it!!!

Today is the beginning...

Ok so I have decided to start my journey from here. Today it finally happened! Michael and I went to our first doctor's appointment to begin the process of IVF. We are excited and scared all in one. We are excited because after 3 1/2 years of trying to have a baby, the day has finally come that IVF is a possibility for us. Scared, because I am deathly afraid of needles and I do not do well with pain. Not to mention the most obvious, what if it does not work!

For a little bit of back story... Michael and I have been married for almost four years. As soon as the "I Dos" were said we new we wanted to start trying to have a family of our own. We all ready have a beautiful Son (my step-son) that is now 5 years old. We wanted our children would be close in age. We never dreamed in a million years that we would not be able to have a baby without help. Michael already had one that he had no problem conceiving and I was perfectly healthy. Needless to say we have been through may ups and downs throughout the years and I don't think I could ever count all the doctors appointments or negative pregnancy tests we have taken throughout the years.

Now fast forward 3 1/2 years, we are still without our own child together. Don't get me wrong, I love Gabe (my step-son) with all my heart as if he were my own. We have been in each other's lived since he was just shy of a year old. I have watched him take his first step and all the other major milestones from then on. I call him Gabybaby. He now hates that but I always tell him that he will always be my baby no matter how old he is. I truly believe that. In my eyes, he will always be my first child.

All that said, we come to today. We had our first appointment at Nashville fertility.  No big deal really, we just sat down with our doctor (Dr. Whitworth) and discussed how everything would go. We have to take a class in two weeks that will give us all of the fine details of everything. Again we are excited but scared of the whole process. We just pray everyday that God will guide us and give us the strength to get through it all and hopefully, finally bring a beautiful healthy baby into the world.

All this said, I have decided to write this blog to, if anything, have for myself to look back on this chapter of my journey of life.... stay tuned....