Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Today is the beginning...

Ok so I have decided to start my journey from here. Today it finally happened! Michael and I went to our first doctor's appointment to begin the process of IVF. We are excited and scared all in one. We are excited because after 3 1/2 years of trying to have a baby, the day has finally come that IVF is a possibility for us. Scared, because I am deathly afraid of needles and I do not do well with pain. Not to mention the most obvious, what if it does not work!
For a little bit of back story... Michael and I have been married for almost four years. As soon as the "I Dos" were said we new we wanted to start trying to have a family of our own. We all ready have a beautiful Son (my step-son) that is now 5 years old. We wanted our children would be close in age. We never dreamed in a million years that we would not be able to have a baby without help. Michael already had one that he had no problem conceiving and I was perfectly healthy. Needless to say we have been through may ups and downs throughout the years and I don't think I could ever count all the doctors appointments or negative pregnancy tests we have taken throughout the years.
Now fast forward 3 1/2 years, we are still without our own child together. Don't get me wrong, I love Gabe (my step-son) with all my heart as if he were my own. We have been in each other's lived since he was just shy of a year old. I have watched him take his first step and all the other major milestones from then on. I call him Gabybaby. He now hates that but I always tell him that he will always be my baby no matter how old he is. I truly believe that. In my eyes, he will always be my first child.
All that said, we come to today. We had our first appointment at Nashville fertility.  No big deal really, we just sat down with our doctor (Dr. Whitworth) and discussed how everything would go. We have to take a class in two weeks that will give us all of the fine details of everything. Again we are excited but scared of the whole process. We just pray everyday that God will guide us and give us the strength to get through it all and hopefully, finally bring a beautiful healthy baby into the world.
All this said, I have decided to write this blog to, if anything, have for myself to look back on this chapter of my journey of life.... stay tuned.... 

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